I lacerated my fingers tonight by means of blender. I didn't go to the hospital (yet?) and I don't think it is tooooo bad... When it happened, I just started screaming KRSNA KRSNA and my roommate heard and came and helped me. Anyway this is completely amazing because due to my extreme misuse of free will (trust me it's extreme), I deserved to have lost my whole hand. Instead, Krsna is sooo kind that I just lacerated one finger and destroyed two nails of the adjacent fingers. See what I wrote on this [link] picture. What to do. Maybe i will learn a deep lesson from this which I can write in my weekly report.

EDIT: Other realizations from my minor emergency (I can't sleep right now so I'm writing it)

1. Appreciation of Bhismadeva (I'm studying ch. 9 currently) - As I was applying pressure and waiting to see if there were any urgent care clinics open in the area, I was contemplating how Bhismadeva was lying on a bed of arrows and still he was so patiently and lovingly explaining Varanashrama dharma to his dear grandson Yudhisthira Maharaj. I cut my fingers, and although I was saying 'Krsna Krsna', I was thinking 'clinic clinic'.

2. Appreciation of Jagai and Madhai - I was reflecting on this after everything calmed down. After becoming devotees, they had people throwing stones at them, and they would pick up the rocks, return them and ask that it be thrown again because they deserved it. I was thinking how glorious an example of repentance this is.